Just Ephemera

There’s no song that can perfectly represent my character, my feelings, or my life story. Usually, only several lines of the whole lyric of a song that can represent ‘me’. One of those songs is Ephemera. It's sung by Letto, my favorite band. Honestly, when I heard ‘ephemera’, I didn’t know the meaning. And then, I searched its meaning in my dictionary, and found that ‘ephemera’ means ‘nymph or something that has short life’. So, when I heard this song for the first time, about three or four years ago, I presume that this song tells us about human’s life that is not everlasting. But, after I saw it’s video clip and read it’s lyric, I knew that it doesn’t tell us about human’s life but tells us about human’s feeling or human’s emotion that isn’t everlasting. We (especially me) are often drown in our feeling, whether happiness or sadness, although we know happiness won’t last forever, a sadness won’t either. Sometimes, we even can't remember how long those feelings last. It's a good song, a combination of inspiring lyric and beautiful music.

Then, here is the lyric:

I do remember hate that came after

(broken heart)

sadness that makes me so helpless

(I can’t fight)

I can’t remember how long it last

I’m sure it went away so freakin fast

   (*) far too many emotion that taint my soul

         before my faith

         and often I drown in the moment when in the end they all

         ephemera

I do remember laughter that can make

(my stomach hurt)

with happiness that make it all pretty

(even a dirt)

I can’t remember how long it last

I’m pretty sure it went away so fast

Back to (*)

a perfect dream of vivid fantasy

imagination that keep coming back to me

Back to (*)

far too many emotion that taint my soul

before my faith

and often I drown in the moment

when every path I take seems like the only right direction

so I’m growing old but life doesn’t seem as pretty

when sometimes it’s as blue as endless sea

blue as the sea, blue as the sky

everywhere I look, everywhere I turn

everytime I glow and everytime I burn

I should not mind to mourn

sometimes, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes

it’s just

ephemera